Currently Reading Go Ask Alice By Anonymous see related

Ha... months later.

Things are not well. I'm failing 2 of my classes, still cutting, and still struggling with the ED shit. At least I'm down to 96 now. I don't know why but losing weight is so hard for me. Most people can fast for a few days and lost 2-3 lbs, easy. I take SO long to lose anything. It's really frusterating. yea.

Tommarow I'm starting at a different hospital. My mom found out about pretty much everything and this is the result. I'm really fucking pissed about it though because of all the people I've known who've gone to this program (and I've known a lot.) none of them have liked it, and the timing of it all is just really fucking dandy. Yeah, I haven't been going to school like I should be, but October is definitely the best part of the entire school year and I just hate the fact that I'm going to miss it all. Plus , some of my friends are REALLY not doing so well and I feel like if I'm not there for them they'll do something bad. Because I know for a fact that one of my best friends is feeling suicidal. It just really worrys me. A lot. I don't know. . .

On the bright side, (ha, bright...) I'm going to see MCR this friday , NIN on november 2nd, and having a Halloween party on , well halloween. So those will be fun. Right now I'm dying my bangs red and that is also good. yay.

I have a huge strange curiousity about LSD. I really want to try it. Is that bad? Probably. *shrugs*

Well, umm.... I don't even know what else to say really. I just felt like I should update this thing because I never do. And I still really like the site.  I have like 812347928 xangas though.... but o well. Once my hair is done maybe I'll post a picture on here.

I suppose that's it for now.

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P.S. Ville Valo  and  Marilyn Manson are GODS